Because I'm supposed to

Confession: I am deathly afraid of public speaking. Absolutely hate it. To the point where I have morbid thoughts right before I have to public speak. I sometimes hope I would get into a car crash and get all broken up just so I don’t have to public speak. In church when they ask me to give a talk the only reason I say yes is because I know I am supposed to say yes, which I am guessing everyone else does the same with church talks but then the whole hoping a would die so I don’t have to public speak comes into play. Not good at all.

Many of your might know that I am a Secondary Math Education Major. Now you might be thinking that becoming a teacher is basically public speaking everyday so why am I doing it? Good question. I often ask myself the same thing. Why am I going into teaching? I’ll tell you why. When I was a freshman I was a Pre-Med Major at WSU, however I hated my science classes to the point where my grades were dropping, but I did love my math classes. I enjoyed getting up early and going to my math class all the way across campus in the freezing cold.

Then I transferred to BYU-I where they don’t have Pre-Med as a major (you can major is Biology though which is similar I’m assuming). But again I hated my science classes so why would I major in a science? So I decided on Math Education. Why not Math? No idea. I honestly have no idea why just the simple major of math didn’t cross my mind.

So here I am in my last semester of classes before student teaching, still a Math Education Major. I’m not sure how much I like the whole teaching part, but I sure love the math part. Anyway back to the public speaking. Since I am in my last semesters of school I still keep asking myself why did I choose to be a teacher?

Here is what I have come up with to answer both of our questions. I’m supposed to. Just like I am supposed to say yes when asked to give a talk, I’m supposed to be a teacher. There is no other way to explain it. I know that one day I will travel the world and spread the gospel; I always knew I wouldn’t before I got married but I know I will sometime. Now spreading the gospel for some people is just being an example and even though I try to do that I have always had this feeling like I would have to be doing a lot of talks or speaking when spreading the gospel. So since I like math and I needed “being in front of an audience” skills. Here I am, a Math Education major. I just keep telling myself that I am doing the right thing and if the Lord wants me to do this then he will provide a way.

This is one of my teacher outfits

He has. Every time before I teach I say a little prayer to help me not sound or look nerves and to just make it through the lesson. And every time I do, and every time people compliment me on how I will be a great teacher (well most of the time).

My point is that even if you might think it is the end of the world, or might want it to be, the Lord will provide. Have Faith and have fun!